August 10th 2014

Hello everyone and welcome once again.
My brother visited me for the weekend. The guy came cycling all the way from Rotterdam to Arnhem. 122 Km...wow. We had a great time, played some pool, got my ass kicked 3 to 1!!
Today I set him on the train back home, as he was tired from cycling! Haha! However I applaud his effort!
He went and did it after all! I'm going to try it at one point too!

When I came home I once again realized how alone I am. I know deep in my heart that there are enough people out there who care for me! So actually I am not alone at all! However, they are not right here at the moment. I guess I do need that at this point. It is not bad living on my own, but hey you do miss the social interaction sometimes. Specially when you have Aspergers. You know social interaction is hard for you, even tires you out completely, but you do long for it! Sometimes you have to break the circle and be tired. That is a different story however.

Once again I realize how much I start to love the radio. I find myself sing along most songs more often.
Singing just makes me happy sometimes...and it is awkward, I start loving the sound of my own voice. Might sound weird, but when you are in my situation you would probably understand... I even came to love Singstar! I mean first I bought it for fun and as a party game, but (not so) secretly I am playing it sometimes! Haha...you caught me!

You know..I try to be that one person that makes a difference. I want to be there for everybody.
I know people will be able to hurt me this way, it happened so much in the past. I am easy to manipulate, but recently I start to see through these things. I want to help you, but if you try to make use of me, I will show you the door while it is still closed. Believe me, it will hurt flying through that door haha!
I am not a person that gives up easily on others either, there has to be a damn good reason if I suddenly would. So people from the past, if you ever read all this, start thinking very carefully about what you have done!

I made a new friend recently too! Very nice lady :)
I am not going to go into too much detail but I am really happy someone showed interest in me!
Makes me feel like I am not yet living under that rock I think is hanging above me! Of course when there is someone that shows interest in me they have my interest as well! I do think it is the start of a very good friendship haha. I got that feeling! Thank you!

There might be a lot more that I wanted to write when I started this, but as I started writing my feelings changed and it became this story instead. I don't really pay attention to what I write, I don't think about it, I just let things flow right from the heart. This is what you are reading here.
Thank you again for the time you took by reading this! Hopefully until soon if you are not already tired of me! Hah!

Yours truly,

Mike