December 11th 2014

Hello everyone,

Little big update here.

First I'll start with a small issue; I had to bring Altaïr to the vet yesterday, the tough little cat had a little wound under his eye from romping with Rosalina (most probably). In the course of the week he kept scratching it open, so it extended to his whiskers. It didn't look very good, so I brought him to the vet.

The vet gave him two injections, one antibiotic, to stop the inflammation, and one against the itch. They gave me a creme to smear over the wound as well. After a day it's looking much much better already! He seems happier now too!


To continue,

Today I had my last meeting at the psychologist. In a way I was happy, happy I came such a long way. Happy I changed so much, learned so much about myself. Happy I've become the man I wanted to be. The man I always thought I was, but I was unable to find him inside of my own body.
Now I did. I found him. I found myself, so it had to come to an end.

I'm a bit disappointed. In the course of the year I came to appreciate my therapist so much. Apart from doing her regular job she took that extra little step. The kind of step that she didn't have to do to do her job. It was that kind of step that makes her personally involved with her patients. I appreciate that so much, but it also means that I will miss her. Apart from it being her job she's a good listener too. I thought this kind of commitment couldn't be left unnoticed, so I did the least I could do. I wrote her a nice thank you card. She was touched by it and said: "This is what makes this job so much fun."
After I shook her hand, she said: "I hope I won't see you back here again, but who knows, I get to see you under different circumstances again."

We exchanged smiles, wished each other happy holidays, and for the first time in my life, I realized I walked out of the building head up, smiling.

Suzanne meant a lot in my life, and she will definitely be remembered.
Even though it was in me all along, she really helped me realized who I truly am.

Hereby I recommend everyone to seek help whenever there is something you can't see a way out of.
Hopefully you'll get the same help I got.

Now it is time for me to spread my wings and explore this wide world, not as a boy who looked down his whole life, but as a man who faces the world and stands up for what he believes in.

This is to you.

Yours truly,

Mike

December 6th 2014

So it's been a while again since I've last updated.
Nothing much going on at the moment, still waiting for the next step in my life. 

It will take some time, all this waiting, but I hope I hear something very soon and I can decide on the next step.

For now things are kind of messy at work, it's a big pot of soup, everybody throws in random ingredients, nobody knows how to cook, and the soup boils over. That's pretty much what's going on.

In my private life things are going well. I found myself drawing more and more, and enjoying every bit of it. All my cats seems to be getting closer to me as well, specially my homeboy Altaïr.

As you probably know the little devil likes to sit on shoulders. He has a new thing. Jump on my shoulder from the floor. First time he tried that was when I was peeing ( I always leave the door open). Scared me, but in an instant I realize it was him, which instantly made me laugh!

Also in terms of losing weight I succesfully dropped below 100KG! I'm 98,4 now, which is a record in a long time!

It's been cold lately, I'm not sure if I start to become more human, or that it actually IS cold.
I think the first. I'm becoming more human. I can smile again, laugh again, give problems the big fat middle finger and go my own way. Sometimes I'll just have to swallow it, but it does make me the person I am now.

Also I've started to sell t-shirts now, or rather, designs for t-shirts.
Take a look on: Long story, shirt.

So yeah, short update, but at least you know I'm still here, fighting for what's right. ( That sounded way more awesome than it should).

Thanks again for reading, and hopefully see you guys soon again.

Yours truly,

Mike