August 22nd 2014

Hello everyone!

So today I took a day off for my personal pleasure. Too many times I only took time off to take care of things, or for others only. Today is my day.

I am going out with my camera to shoot some photos in the nature. Something I absolutely love to do. I started today with some push-us, something I have been doing ever since my life changed about a month ago. Not doing it daily, but I skip a day.
I turned the radio on and made breakfast. A cheese-grilled sandwich with a spoon of tomato ketchup. Jasmine-strawberry tea with honey to wash it away. I am the type of guy who drinks his tea sweetened and with milk. I was supposed to do groceries yesterday but I fell asleep. When I was having breakfast this song came on the radio; I believe it is called: "Waiting for a star to fall". It was requested by a guy who celebrated his 5th anniversary of marriage today. I found myself reminiscing of the past and what could have been if I took a different path in life. Am I waiting for a star to fall as well? Now I know thinking too much about this things usually ends up in me getting depressed, so I quickly shut down this train of thoughts. I promised myself this would be a good day. I packed my bag and went on my way, into nature.

So I walked around and made some photos, but not as much as I expected to do. However I was away for a good two hours walking into nature. Walking around that early in the morning with almost no one around was soothing. So quiet, only the rustling of the wind through the leaves, the scent of the forest, makes a man find inner peace.

After that I went into the center and treated myself to a copy of Kingdom Hearts 1,5 HD remix. A game that she took with her when she left. After that I did some groceries, treated myself to some chocolate and got some stuff that will help me through the weekend.

When I got home I took a nice hot shower and did something I always do when I feel the need some guidance. I sat down and started meditating. The sound of the water, and the nice feeling of the warmth definitely helps achieving a state of inner peace as well. You see, I believe in things like this. I believe it helps.

I've seen him before, a man, that looks like me only 10 years older. A much wiser me perhaps? Everytime I saw him I asked what I should do with my life. What paths I should take, if I should go left or right.
This time he told me that a man walks his path in life, and he will always walk it alone. Sometimes people's paths cross, you walk together for a while, and then the paths split. It's life. Sometimes paths combine, and you walk them together. What we must not forget is, even if you walk a path together, there are still two paths, you continue to walk yours, for that is your life. Living your life for someone else is not worth it. Living life together with someone is. What he meant to say is, you will only be happy if you follow your own path in life, not someone else's. Unfortunately sometimes it means goodbye, but sometimes it means more joy.

I ask all of you to think about your life for a second. Do you life it for yourself? If not why not?
It is your life, living someone else's will never make you happy. I love helping people however, don't get me wrong. Just don't put others before yourself too much. Sometimes doing so gives you friends, most of the time it gives you profiteers. Do not change yourself for someone else either, I did too much in my life.
Starting today I will stand my ground. My life, my opinion, my view. It is okay to say no sometimes.
That is what my psychologist told me Tuesday.

Last but not least, I would like to thank Lia, my best friend and the best sister a person could have for always being there for me and just being an awesome and funny friend to hang out with. Here's to you sis!

Thank you for your time again! Hang in there, and see you again soon.
Yours truly,

Mike