Clothes don't make the man

Hello everyone and welcome to my blog.

In this entry I will try to describe my personality and traits as close as possible.
First of all I never have been able to tell much about myself without anyone asking me questions. This is mainly because I don't know who I really am, sometimes I still don't. Sometimes I would try to be, or act like someone who impresses me, or with who I hang out with. As of lately I have been trying to be my real self, but this is sometimes not as easy as it seems. I have been to a psychiatrist ( first this was Hendriks & Rozenboom or something like that, and after that Pro Persona). The first diagnosed me with social fears, for example, I hate it when people look at me, scared of what they think of me. I hate to be in the center of attention and I'd rather be a person behind the scenes in general. I am also not very good with face to face conversations mainly because of this reason. Now most people will probably think I am weird, or not interested, but most of the time I am too shy to look directly at someone.
Well, second of all, at Pro Persona I have been diagnosed with a mild form of autism. I had my suspicion for quite a few years, I did things I could not explain, or knew why I was doing them in that particular way or order. Knowing this makes me feel a bit more peaceful, since I know the reason behind things. This however does not give me a reason to be a complete dick, so in advance I would like to apologize if I do something wrong, or something bad and I do not understand why it is that way.

At work they have these personality tests, and when given the chance I did them. This also helped me find out a bit about myself, and would make it easier to tell everyone else things about me that I didn't know how to put into words in the first place. The test is in Dutch, but I will do my very best to translate it as close as possible. Here goes:

I am a systematic and precise working person, who strives to perfection. I act in a orderly and in advance certain way, I am accurate and pay attention to details. I would rarely challenge or provoke anyone. I chose for a tactful and diplomatic approach. I will often show a good timing with taking the right decision at the right time. I am an extraordinary dutiful person. Therefor I shall scrupulous and consequently do my job.I desire a clear way of working and I don't like sudden changes or deviation of the given rules. I like to have a shared responsibility and I appreciate appreciation from my manager. I don't like to be away from my trusted environment for a long time. I need assignments that require precision and planning. When in doubt I shall council my manager or direct colleagues. Therefor I really appreciate a close cooperation and require support. When changes happen I would like to have a detailed explanation in advance.

Motivators:
Certainty, security, a trusted working environment, interest and  appreciation are important motivators for me.

Keywords:
Careful, systematic, precise, diplomatic, logic, patience, predictable, well-considerate, critical, peaceful, reserved, contemplative and modest. Disciplined, compliant, concerned, thoughtful, conventional, perfectionism, reliable, restrained, amiable, persistent, nice, suspicious, serious, hesitating, low demanding, helpful and mellow.

General attributes:
- I have the ability to objectively judge others' situations and performance.
- This logical thinker strives to find the perfect solution.
- I am patient in most situations.
- Before acting or taking a decision I weigh out the consequences.
- I have extraordinary high demands.
- I collect details and finish an assignment as a whole.
- I prefer to work in a structured environment.
- This not aggressive individual doesn't like hostile situations.

Furthermore I have done another test that tests the following attributes:
Reason, Perception & Speed, Mental arithmetic & accuracy, Meaning of words and Spatial insight.

On a scale of 0 -100% I scored the following:

Reason: 75%
Perception and Speed: 56%
Mental arithmetic & Accuracy: 3%
Meaning of Words: 42%
Spatial insight: 84%

This concludes the test that I did at work. This test is mainly for my supervisors to see my ability to grow and learn, but it does show some characteristics of me, therefor I had to share a part of it with you.

Other than this information you have about me, you can look in my profile. At the moment I haven't updated it yet, but I will soon enough. If there is anything I can't share in my profile I will let you know via an entry.
I guess I finally ran out of things to say about me for the moment, but stay tuned for other random thoughts and things that happened to me, or things that I would just like to share.
Thank you for you time and god bless you.